A lot has changed since I stopped posting on here in February. Graduate school wasn't what I thought or hoped it would be. I found myself fighting to find a reason why I was there, and never found one. I could no longer justify two more years of student loans for a dream I wasn't sure of anymore. I did not struggle with grades or get in fights with students or professors. I just simply wasn't happy. For me, it was a very hard decision to leave grad school. I'd never given up on something I started. But the moment the words came out of my mouth, a great weight was lifted off my chest.
If I said that becoming pregnant had nothing to do with me leaving school, it would be a lie. It did bear weight on my decision. As I thought about starting a family, I thought about the family that we had left behind in Indiana, and rarely saw. I then realized how horribly homesick I had been since the day I arrived in Pennsylvania.
For now, Billy and I are living at my parent's house in Noblesville, IN, while we both look for jobs. I haven't given up on creating art, but it is on hold. Hopefully I'll get my screen printing supplies together and work on some fun stuff in the garage here soon. I don't have the facilities to make ceramic work for now, but when the time comes, I'll be ready. In the meantime, I'll try to get some newer pictures up.
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Discussing dreams and things and thoughts and lives and beings and hopes and jokes and trials and tribulations and investigations and masturbation all with the idea that we're all really just a bunch of f*cking animals walking through life in a haze
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